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Wednesday, May 23, 2007

Hey people! There's actually nothing to do today so I shall just post my blog! For the first time, I'm actually infront of homework! Anyway... So what happened today? Actually nothing happened today. Yesterday I was sick. Geez. Humans are so fragile. My head was like going to break. Dizzy like don't know what. I was like clutching my head when I was sleeping. [according to my sister.] *Thinks* There's nothing to say...... Life's boring.

What to do? There's nothing much to do these days except homework and more homework. I'm just like getting myself into whole heap of troublesome things. It should have been easy but it isn't. I don't think it's gonna get better anyway. So I shall talk about what I wanna talk about.
Hmm... You know, I can't find a way to describe it properly. It's like this crawling feeling... that just goes on inside. I don't know how or why. I know it just happens. I wish it'll just like disappear but it just continue. Now I know the meaning of never-ending. Thanks alot. I mean I'm fading away each day. Fading more and more. There's no hand to catch. But it's much better this way I guess. Rather than catch a hand then being shrugged off by it. It's not only a cold world, it's a better one. Why? We weren't born with hatred in our hearts. We aren't, right? I've always believe that fact. I will continue to believe it. You can't prove me wrong. You can only prove me right. That's only ironic things are. When you can't prove things right, you'll think it's wrong. People do not have the good fortune to keep faith, they're only entitled to be suspiscious of other people. Tell me, were there ever a time when you think you can completely trust a person and could be their best friend? They were times like those. When we're young. Just one second of introduction and we could be off tickling each other like crazy and both of the us don't care. Why? Cause you're my best friend. Remember? "A circle, it goes on forever, and that's how long we'll be together." That's how I keep faith. Every human being have this innocent. It's just a matter of it disappearing into nothingness, or being kept up by walls of lies or just pure innocence. Which are you?

Not that I really care. I really don't. I'm just telling you stuff you should know. Don't tell me, you've never been suspicious of anybody? Well that's good for you, cause it can mean two things: 1;you've been cheated even without knowing you're cheated.Naive. 2;so far, you met alot of good people. Those are rare nowadays. Really rare. No one's totally good you know? As I told everyone a million times. If a coin can have 2 sides, why can't a person have 2 sides too? A person actually have several sides. Well, I haven't found a way to get rid of the scratchy little thing in my heart. Maybe it was irritated by the fact or way human lives. Maybe I'm the only one who have any faith left. Not faith in anyone or anybody, but faith in faith itself. Or am I the one without the faith? Such irony. Life sucks.

♥undefined. 9:24 pm

Sunday, May 20, 2007

Hey people!!! Sorry that I didn't write on Saturday, but I was really busy the whole day and didn't have time to write!!

Yesterday was a very special day. Why? Coz of 3 REASONS!

1. PTM!

2. I CUT MY HAIR!

3. EDS NITE!

So yah... For the Parents Teacher Meeting. It went quite well, cuz my sister met Mrs. Kumaran, Mr. Tan and Mdm Low. Mrs. Kumaran told my sister this. I quote "Nyein Nyein is a good kid la. Just that she's lazy. How long did you take to do the comparison essay?" I was like... I am? ... LoL. Then she say "She's good at poetry, very good marks for CAP." I was like REALLY?! My eyes went --> 0.0" My sister was like =.=" But Mrs. Kumaran told my sister that I was very lazy but have alot of potential to do alot better. Then my sister went to see Mdm Low. Mdm Low said I was too talkative and talked about Baxter and me. =.=" Then my sister was like >.>''. Then Mdm Low asked my sister to cut my hair or tie it up and to watch out for my dressing attire. ...My sister did the first one, but didn't really care about the latter. And she said I didn't study for chinese at all and asked my sister to make me read chinese books because according to what she said ... "Her chinese is very good! Her essays are good but she doesn't read books..." ..... Then off to Mr. Tan. My sister asked him how I was doing and she said she thinks my maths is very weak. Mr. Tan was like "No lah. She's actually, pardon me for using the word, damn good." I was like 0.0,first time praise me seh... My sister's still unconvinced though.

Then talk talk talk until no time to go and listen to the talk liao... They said that the subj. combi very impt. but I'll just ask from my trustworthy friends... LOL. haha. Then before talking to Mr.Tan, my sister made an appointment at 3 to cut hair at TONI & GUY. WOOTS! Finally get to cut hair! So I quickly went to heeren, but ate at cineplex first. =)) Then I cut until very short if not mummy will scold... Anyway. I ~~like~~ love my new hairstyle! Cause I think it's so damn freaking cool. Then I went home when Yunzhen called me to meet her at city hall. So I quickly bathed and changed. Actually I was thinking of not wearing stockings, but then leh, my sister asked me to wear, so what the heck la. Just wear it. I anyhow wore the stockings... looked so ugly! Eeyeeer... supposed to look nice, but looked weird.. But then leh, I think it's quite ok. =)) Then I when I finally met yunzhen and fawn, they were like 0.0! Do I look THAT different? Anyway, I like fawn's jeans! Skinny jeans! okok, I do have a skinny jeans, it's miss60 and they're nice but I want another pair!!! Then we went to burger king when fawn and yunzhen ate, but I didn't cause I don't feel like eating. SO GUAI! I STUCK TO MY DIET PLAN! Then we rushed to toapayoh cause we thought we were late. Then Yunzhen was telling me her dance instructor Ryan was so damn bloody funny! I wanna go learn pole dancing!! =.="Seriously! Pole dancers have nice bodies and legs! ANYWAY! When we reached toapayoh, I saw PEIJUN! Then also got alot of our school people staring at me, so I was like "Can don't go infront of the group of dunmanians, they'll see usme. Then Yunzhen walked so fast across. =.=" Communication didn't work. So I had to RUN in high heels. OUCH. But seeing as I'm a good heels wearer [is there such a word?], I could catch up with her, but unluckily, peijun saw me... Haizz.. Vain effort. When I went in, the people there were like 0.0 or o.0 I don't know to take that as a compliment or an insult... 1 good thing was that I didn't see Baxter... Good thing... If not he'll be busy insulting me.

I don't want to talk out the WHOLE EDS NITE, but the dances were hmm... how to say... not that good as last year's ones. The sec 4 dance too. Last year one was better. But I liked the SYF dance. =)) The skits and mr.ken's monologue was so freakin' hilarious, I think the guy beside me thought I was released from MPH. =.=" Then I have to go to hospital to meet my dear old brother. Then after some chatting, I went home. FINALLY! Oh yah, that reminds me. Do you know one guy suddenly came up to me and asked me "Are you open for business?" I was like 0.o what do you mean? Then I suddenly 0.0 and said "No." and walked off. Haizz.. guys these days. Such an interesting day.

Sunday wasn't that special cause from 9 until 6 I spent the time at Dunman High School. But I ain't gonna complain, the songs are nice to listen! Haha! If you're lost in the clause, I mean my chinese orchestra.

P.S. Thanks to those who said my outfit was nice. But I felt very weird in it, cause got alot of people staring.

♥undefined. 10:30 pm

Thursday, May 17, 2007

Hello people!! Sorry I skipped a day... But there's nothing really to write about my life... Gosh, I sound so emo, must be because of the song I'm listening. Oh yah, and if haven't noticed, I've put up a list of songs in my blog, they'll take a little while to load, so don't be surprised if the song stops half way and then continue again... Since I've nothing to do, I shall post my scores for the IDMI test...

Interpersonal 0

Linguistic 4

Visual & Spatial 4

Musical 4

Intrapersonal 0

Logical / Mathematical 3

Kinesthetic 4

Natrualist 0

My results changed drastically from last year, I just hope that my group members will rock! =)) Looking at my results, I feel like they're very extreme!!! all is either high or 0... Am i THAT extreme? I don't think so! I'm buried in homework/projects!!! How am I gonna survive through this? Although I know I won't die from this... =)) I'm just so tired of living this lfie... you know, just wanna drop down and wait for the sky to fall. I mean like seriously, even if you do all this, won't you just die and rot away in god-knows-where six feet underground. Why do humans choose the hard way of living life? And why are the younger generations customed to follow the tradition? Slog and Slog all day... Humans love doing it the hard way. Why not just sit back and relax and share the earth? That sounds like a within-reach fairytale to me. Ok, I shall stop complaining here. Yup, life's unfair. Fairness is too subjective it anyway. Nod your head if you understand what crap I'm saying. *NOD* See, you aren't that stupid! haha... ok I'm lame.

Yesterday for the first time in my whole freakin' life, I had to sit in the first row!!! With Kian Ming... it wasnt' that bad and I realised that he's scared of tickles... =.="" I mean like seriously, he pratically jumped when I poked him. At least his wasnt' all bones, it's not nice poking Baxter, too bony. =)) Today I sat back with Baxter again. Liesl and Kaiyuan told me they were bored to death when Michelle and Xinyue didn't turn around to talk to them... haizz.. they're the class quietest people!! But they're nice so who cares if they talk! haha. Mr. Tan told me today that I cannot talk to Baxter, Liesl or Kaiyuan during maths lesson if not I can't learn anything.. quite true, maybe that's why my maths grades are dropping!!! Today the quiz I LOST A FREAKIN' 3 WHOLE MARKS! Let me complain cause I could have gained those marks!! =((( I'm gonna practise my maths like damn freakin' hard so that I won't fall behind! JIAYOU TO MYSELF! I'm so pathetic man. Today, when I was walking home, lots of people looked at me like I was a freak cause my hair was all messed up, my long bangs was covering my face and the back the was messy. Even I couldn't see clearly... maybe cause I was looking down when I was walking... Freak huh? Isn't everyone a freak in their own way? Or am I too normal that I'm a freak to them? Then when I was crossing through Orchard Rd, I saw the advert that everyone's talking about.. the "NO SMOKING" then the woman's mouth is all sores and stuff? Yeh, Then I was like looking at it and talking to myself: If a person could have that much sore, they'd be dead, who'd be taking a photoshoot at a time like this? It's lame and the sores aren't even disgusting..." Then this woman who was walking infront me, turned around and looked back then walked faster away. Am I that scary? It's like everyone's avoiding me. HAIZZ.. luckily for me I can block them out. One personal reason that I wear my headphones is so that I can block out the pathetic things happening in this stupid world... I don't wanna hear nor see them, I can't stand it... Look at the clock, see the second hand? It's ticking slowly away... and what are we doing again? Slogging our ass off for marks that won't even count if you'll go to heaven or hell. We're wasting our life away. Slowly. By each second our bodies are getting older and we're approaching death. Life's not full of contradiction. It IS a contradiction by itself. We live to die. Enjoy life? How? We're not even living life. We're just walking down a path that will eventually lead to death. Have you ever done something that you won't mind doing for the REST OF YOUR LIFE? I don't think so. We're just rotting away on this mother earth and waiting for the time to take us in its stride. Haizz, I guess it's life. I'm getting tired of trying to understand or living its best. Come take me, I'm waiting.

♥undefined. 7:57 pm

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

I'm so FREAKING SORRY! =((

I have no freakin' time to update ok! Sorry!! Sorry to all who tagged me but didn't got to see my new updates... just for the heck of it, I shall list them down : Esther, Kaiyuan, Shimin, Jane, EeSheen, Huiying and Yarthet [ I don't know who Charmaine is... sorry!] =))

Sorry to my loyal readers who don't tag me too! =))

So... well, since I have the time, I shall ramble on....

LEVEL CAMP!!!

Level camp is freakin' fun! I know some of you don't feel that way but for me, IT'S FUN! YaY! Haha. My trainer is so .... .... uncle? I don't know .... but he's very funny! =)) I shall keep laughing. His name is actually Johnathan , aged 19 --> 20, but I shall call him Uncle John whose 33 years old. =)) I'm so mean but he does look like he's 33. I think that group 21 trainer, who is it... Amin? Don't know, he's hilarious! I kept laughing at him until he told me I needed medicine and he was scared of me. LOL. But I still kept laughing... LOL. I'm mad. I'm crazy. Nah, I'm plain weird. LOL.We did alot of things there but I shall always remember 2 things! The raining day and the campfire night! It held alot of memories. Gosh, I'm being sentimental. .... We danced and rocked and hugged and cried[some] like crazy. But it's all worth it, cause we can never turn back the hands of time and go back to 8 - 11 May 2007. It's over people, but things will never be forgotten. Forgotten what happened, but we'll never forget what we felt. Remember with the heart. =)) Anyway, I shan't crap mushy stuff... I made alot of new friends during the LEVEL CAMP! I just wanna shout out to all my friends : old or new, talked or never talked before, : I WANNA CONTINUE BEING YOUR FRIEND! =))
sorry for the purple colour, if you're my guy friend. =)) Oh ya! SEXY SOTONGS ROCK!

The second thing I wanna talk about is the results... well, I shan't lie, I do deserve the marks I get. But I could do much much much better. Yes. So I shall stop weeping and buck up! I'm so optimistic! Three cheers for me! LOL. And those people who got great marks : GOOD WORK AND KEEP IT UP! , for those who didn't get ideal marks : I BELIEVE THAT YOU CAN DO BETTER!. Listen to my wise advice : Everything will be alright in the end, if it isn't, it isn't the end! Continue walking!

The third thing I wanna talk about it is the EDS NITE. I'm going for the night one, who's going? Wanna go with me? I'm going with : Yunzhen, My sister. WoW. SO many people... But who cares, they're both cool! =P I just wanna say JIA YOU to the EDS Dancers. It may be a bit rushed and you may feel flustered but I believe that you can do it! Well, if under any circumstances, doesn't turn out the way you wished it to, never mind, I'll always bring flowers! =))

Reply to tags:

EeSheen: I updated! You got update or not!!!

Esther: SO SO SO sorry! I REALLY didn't have time!

Jane: I updated! I intend to keep my blog lively! =))

Yarthet: LONG TIME NO SEE! HELLO! how did you find my blog!

KaiYuan: Thanks for the push, I updated.

Charmaine: I really do not know any charmaine but I'm guessing you're from grp 21 or 23! =)) HELLO!

♥undefined. 8:29 pm

Thursday, May 03, 2007

Hello people!! There's nothing to talk much about today, just that I GOT NEW HAIR BAND AND NICE NEW HAIR TIES BOUGHT BY MY NICEST SISTER! =)) I love it! The hair band looks like it's bought from "The Pirates of the Carribean" because of the skull on it! =)) The hair ties are nice too! Woot! I'm gonna enjoy having long hair! Maybe if i get tired of it, I shall cut away my hair. Ok, I'm crazy.

There's not much thing to talk about today but just that I was feeling damn hyper this morning cause the music that I was listening to was so upbeat! Then the students that was walking behind or beside were looking like me as if I was the weirdest thing on the world. Oh well, who cares? I know I don't.

Got back the maths paper today! I got 35.5/40. Ok, I know that some of you may think that it's good, but this is my blog so let me just vent my anger. I GOT A FREAKIN' 35!!!!!!!!!!! I'M SO GONNA SINK INTO DEPRESSION. But then leh, I went back to Mr.Tan and he said I could add marks! WOO!! So I think I'm gonna get eh... 37? And EeSheen is jealous that my maths marks are so good! "Too bad, so sad."=)) LOL>

Today Mr.Zein showed us the Germany trip thing. And I heard that the IP Humanities is going to continue until Year 3. I hope it does! I don't know which to choose! Geog or History!!!!!!! Somebody please give me advice/ideas!

Haizz.. And right now, my sister is buying me a oreo cheesecake from starbucks and I'm patitently waiting at home like a pig! =0.0= <--- It looks like a cat though...

♥undefined. 6:59 pm

Wednesday, May 02, 2007

Hello people!! Life's the same as everyday.

Woo!! I love all the people that are tagging at my post! The 3 ghost shows that were shown ; The Ring, The Maid, and Ju-on isn't scary. Seriously. National Treasure was quite nice though and The Night at The Museum is hilarious!! But when going home, sorry to Vanessa and Maureen! I was sleeping like a pig! Not that was tired, but my head was killing me!
Haizz.. and by the way, I couldn't find a song I'm good at to play for PeiJun. Please just kill me man. Esther (erhu) was playing cha2 xiang1 fei1 lian3 but I don't think I'll play that, it's pure noise pollution.
I'm like bloody excited about the maths test! and WOOTS! we're finally onto trigonometry ratio! I guess it's going to be loads of fun from now on! Sorry to those who don't understand cause I really like that topic! And I can't wait to get back my paper. I think I'll be very depressed with my marks.
And another thing, my sister's sick again. Haizz... and she still switched on the air-con yesterday. She's so sickly.
There's nothing to talk much about nowdays. Life's too secure. And security is the denial of life.

Reply to tags:

Jane: Yup, I'm a brownie! Hard to break! =))

Esther: What happened girl! Talk to me! =))

Shimin: Nope, YOU slept through it! And I'm not changing to VJC. Too troublesome. =))

Jiaxin: Yup, I went to VJC open house. It was quite interesting by the way. I saw alot of ex-dunmanians there!

Sarah: I got update lor! you should update too!

♥undefined. 7:39 pm