HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!
This is a bit late to tell you all this but oh welll, i didn't update for like hell of a long time!
OH YAH! I CAME BACK FROM VIETNAM!
And the bad news to tell you all is that ; I didn't buy any presents for you all. Blame my memory. ((=
Anyway, Vietnam trip was very very fun! We went to alot of places and I learnt alot of things there! But because of my laziness, I shan't type out everything we did. I did abit of this and abit of that. I made so many friends there! Haha. =)) I kinda miss our guide Tuan. Is that how you spell is name? But I know the pronounciation was "Tuu-ann".
And I came back with abit of homework left. Haizz.. I'm still in a holiday mood, don't wanna do homework leh... But I shall do it. After all. It's homework.
I still have to go China. Haizz.. But I shan't miss out on class sleep-over at Mae's house! =))
Don't read the below if you don't feel like it.
It's not like I don't know.
I actually know more than you think. You just don't notice me.
I'm not cold hearted you know? I am, after all, a girl. Girls' hearts are soft.
You may think I'm strong. If you thought that, than you should give me an oscar award for my acting skills. What am I to you? That I don't know. I can't even figure out.
Searching from an ocean of questions to a sea of darkness doesn't make much of a difference to me.
I don't know what to do anymore. Very little of you is left for me. Everyday I'll wonder ; How much of you will I be seeing today? If any at all...
I know. I'm not that naive. That I'm not the only person in this whole world. But it just hurts. It hurts that you care. It hurts that you keep it all inside. But it freakin' hurts that I care too.
Tell me what to do. My brain just doesn't function anymore. Emotions does drive a person mad. Why can't I be free of them? Can I just return to my uncaring attitude? Take me back. You took me in, now take me back. I don't want to stay here. I don't like it here. Everything's just too naked. I can see it all. Now I know why you always said Innocence is Bliss. I don't wanna know. Don't shout in my ear.
Don't even whisper. Once it goes in, it doesn't come of the other side. Don't look at me. I can't take it. Everyday, you're disappearing. Too bad I can't disappear with you. I don't wanna stay in this freakin' world without you. It's just too empty. Watch people walkin in and out of life. Most of them don't gain much.
I'm getting colder and colder. One doesn't need to know that much at a young age like mine. I don't wanna grow up. Let me be spoiled. Please. I don't wanna know about all these. I'm growing cold to everyone. Hold my hand and tell me if its warm. You won't hold my hand, would you? Why would you? I'm so insignificant to you, "I couldn't even remember you were there." It hurts alot you know? That sentence. You told me things I never knew.
Haizz... It sucks to be a girl.
