Well, now that I have nothing to do, I shall blog. Not really nothing to do.. but oh well. Nothing I'd do better at the moment.

I've been thinking. (again) Maybe I wasn't built to go into the world. But to be protected.
Many people said I'm strong. Mentally and Physically. But really, what is real strength? Is strength the hardening of the heart? Or the softness of it to dare to love? Is strength holding on till your whole body hurts? Or is it just to simply let go? Is strength to go through every single storm? Or just the will to wait for a rainbow? Is strength learning to accept harsh reality or daring to dream?

They are alot differnt types I guess. Like I always say. 2 sides of a coin. People are not 2 dimensional. They're 3 dimensional. But they are contradicting aren't they? Tell me, is it the complexity of a question that people think it's simple? Or is it the simplicity of the question that makes people suspicious? Kinda amusing ain't it? A play with words, I guess. Love or Lust? True love never contains lust. Or is it that love encompasses lust? We'll never know... will we? The world is full of questions. Or is it that the world contains so many answers that people give questions to them? This is entertaining.

One day, maybe the time will come when all questions will be answered and all doubts will be cleared. Maybe.

Today somehow I pissed my mom off-ed again. I don't know why. I just seem to anger people easily, don't I? People are always dis-satisfied with me. I'm less than imperfect. *chuckles* This is such a sick joke. Well... not that I like pleasing people but... could somebody tell me why nobody's satisfied with me? Why there's always something wrong with me.

If i were gone
No one would care
It's not like you see
Me sitting there
And no one ever
Hears what i say
Yet i tarry on
Day by day
In hopes that someone,
That someone will see
What really goes on
Inside of me
But everyone's blind In my world
And no one watched
As my life unfurled
Because it wasn't special
And it wasn't grand
And i wasn't born with
A silver spoon in my hand
Now no one cares
Bout this lil girl
Because everyone cared
When i came in this world
And i didn't notice
I let them all down
I turned all their smiles Into nothing but frowns
There's no words to describe
How much I hated myself

♥undefined. 8:20 pm