Well, I realised that I haven't been posting much these days.. Well. What can I post anyway.. not that much interesting things have been happening here lately..

My mum's been sick and I can't do anything much. Feeling more useless these days. Can't do anything right I guess. I feel like the water's reaching up to my chin. I'm going to drown soon. That few seconds between life and death seem to tick by slowly. People say when you're going to die, flashes of your past goes right by your eyes. I wonder if that's true. I wonder if I'll ever remember anything from the past. Maybe I'll be able to... Maybe. Settled right between dreams and realities, it's horrible. Tredding between that thin line of abyss, will I be able to trace back my steps? Should I go forward? Should I go back? Should I hope for my dreams? Should I stand earthed to my ground?

Confusing between 2 parrallel lines. Now I understand. Heaven and Earth. They'll never mingle. But raindrops let the earth know, feel, what exists up in the sky. Some sort of connection? Is the sky crying to the fact that even though they'll face each other throughout eternity, they'll never get to be friends? I'm right infront of you, but I'm a million miles away.

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry

I never needed anyone. Never ever.

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take.

I know exactly how many steps you took before you turned around and smiled. The steps that you took before you were completely out of my life. Forever. Could you retrace those steps?

If the point of hurting started from the point of breaking, before the end comes, I'm willing to love you again.

♥undefined. 2:45 pm