It's been so long since I last updated.
I feel somewhat guilty about it.. somewhat.

The world have been revolving around. once again. No, it has always been this way. The world revolving around me, not me revolving around it.

Tears are falling from my heart.

♥undefined. 7:46 pm

It has been one whole week since I last updated and I'm so sick of my blog skin now. Should I change it? I think I should. Well, it can still wait for later...

So anyway.... I'm feeling bored after this morning's erhu lesson. *sigh* Wls is contradicting again. I mean who becomes good at one second and deprove drastically in the next second? Why did I ever think that I could ever become musically good? *sigh* There's alot of things to sigh about today.

Life's become mundane and boring. Actually, it has always been boring, but it has become downright tasteless these few days. "high" isn't that high anymore and repetitions has become a routine in life. I don't know what to do now. Things are just flashing past my eyes, and I've become too lazy to catch any of them. I guess there's no use sitting there and let things go right under your nose. There's really nothing to question anymore. About good or evil. About right and wrong. About clean and soil. About good and taboos.

It doesn't really matter to me anymore. Never did and never had.I really miss you. Really did. That wet pillow proves it all.

P.S. I love you.

♥undefined. 2:46 pm

*sigh* It's been so long since I talked to you. Really. 3 days felt like 3 weeks. =.=" I hate missing people. I really do. It's like having a hole in your heart which you're constantly looking through, hoping you'll see the person on the other side. I hate time. I really it. It keeps rolling us on in the place called "earth" and never stops.

TIME

Eternity plays the time,
Words plays the mind.
Centuries fly by,
Eons go past.
Who shall continue the rhyme?

Time goes by and by,
building and breaking lives.
Why not stop for a while?
Let the world shatter within --
The silence of the time.

How old is Time?
How young is past?
How long is Eternity?
How short is everlast?
How much more to go till the end?

When did they Sky quarrel with the Earth?
How did they become friends?
When was their last deep kiss?
What will the stars miss?
When will the Sky stop crying for the Earth?

Caught in the spasm of time,
Trapped in the webs of wind.
Time gives life to tell all a story,
A story of how everything will burn,
Though the story ends,
still, the minute-hand turns.

Do not emo. I hate being emo. Makes me feel so weird. Ok, let's talk about today, I finished the LA summary and si han in the morning, eh, NO! I finished Si Han on yesterday night. I read through the film studies notes, and I did the physics textbook exercises. After that I went for Erhu lessons. LOL. Ding lao shi tiao yin for me leh! Because WLS wasn't there. Then we started to leave at 9.45 then wls come. LOL. So we were held back till 10.30. =.="

When I arrived at home, I finished my maths collinear exercises and I read my ions thing! Yayy! So I have officially finished all my homework! It feels so nice to finish all! =)) So Now, I can go cycling with a relief of mind!

♥undefined. 5:29 pm

Today was orientation concert. I mean it was OK. And I mean barely. I'm not saying this because I played especially well. Hey. I screwed up. But I know we can do better. I mean, yeah. We can definitely, don't give up guys! =D
Anyway, tomorrow's the start of official lessons! *sigh* It means homework. Aww man!

Sorry for the short post, I swear I'll post tomorrow or something...

♥undefined. 6:03 pm

THE LAST DAY OF ORIENTATION!!!

I cannot believe I'm saying this, but I can't wait to start the classes. The orientation for Year 3 can be only summarized in ONE bloody word: BORING!

I absolutely cannot believe we didn't even get to do any physical activity or leave the school!! I mean like HELLO!! We are BLOODY!!! YEAR 3s!!!! Why can't we have some fun like the year 1s or 2s or 4s or 5s or 6s? Are we that freakin boring to do that? I mean yeah, 3E IS can be quite dead, but.. URGH! Ok, I shall stop complaining. Don't complain, work harder.

I'm gonna concentrate on my studies and my erhu ONLY! except for some occasions. I really am going to! well, as true as a person who hasn't done her holiday homework can get.

But seriously, in all honesty, I simply hated this orientation. Kiff was okay. Even Martin couldn't make me sleep, (even though i was going to) but it wasn't fun. I mean like... okay la. But seriously, I can't remember more than 20 names in my class. (!!) We really should bond more and seriously, 3E is like.. "3E!" "*complete silence*" Wow. My class is SO enthu. Wow.

I'm not blaming my class. Okay. We're new. We just got to know each other but, I can't help feeling a little dejected seeing other classes. (Esp. when no one bomb-ed our class! I mean like E!!! %^&#$%^!) *sigh* *bigger sigh* *even bigger sigh*

I shall do my homework now.


i don't know why but after all everything was said, i can't help feeling a little bit down. i mean i know i shouldn't be, you would always be there, but what i need.. heck i don't even know what i need. i'll just be that little girl standing in a corner waiting for someone to call her name.

♥undefined. 9:39 pm

THE FIRST DAY OF school 3E.

Well I must state honest fact, I really don't feel like a senior, year 3, going-to-be 16. I don't know what I feel like, but I don't feel like I grew. This just makes me shiver how time can numb your sensitivity against it.

In a blink, we're year 3. In a blink, our classmates are wearing long pants. In a blink, we've only got 4 less than 4 years left in DunmanHigh. Don't you feel that the wheels are turning too fast? Our honeymoons years in year 1 and year 2 were spent so freely that we didn't realise how much we were caught up with the flow of time we didn't see it pass by. Now that we're in year 3, what are we going to do? The irony of it all made me realise how much time I threw away.

When was the last time I chose to concentrate on my homework?
When was the last time when I actually cared about my grades?
When was the last time I was afraid that I would hand up my homework late?
When was the last time I was actually considered a good student at all?

Thinking over all these things made me regret one fact : I was actually in fact wasting my life.

I wanna make it good this year. I hope I'll stick to my decisions.

I'd like to thank all my friends who've been there for me. Be it whether we're in the same school or not. I'd like to thank my sister who was there to scold me for all the stupid twists and turns I've blindly made. I'd like thank my mum who nagged at me enought to install a body clock in my body.

I've made new friends through the years. Definitely. And I've drifed away from some. Definitely. Even though I may be forgetful. I'd definitely never forgot how happy I was with you all. Ending of year 2, I've gained a whole new friendship. =]] Thanks.

-Nyein,
I'll be missing you --really.

♥undefined. 4:18 pm