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Sunday, March 22, 2009
Hey People. If you were wondering if I had died, I didn't.
I had a perfectly good reason for not blogging.
But that don't mean I'm going to tell you.
=P
So anyway. Today was supposed to be a hardworking day, I did my laundry. But, in the end, I never had the motivation to do my homework. =.=
So I'm drinking Red Bull now, hoping to find my motivation for my PW project thing.
Oh and I've come with a list of looks I wanna do for my makeup! I wish I had more time to do makeup but there are alot of reasons for not doing that.
1. I have SYF.
2. I have LOADS of homework.
3. I have to MOVE.
Yes, you saw correctly. I have to move. AGAIN. This is like the nth time I'm moving. So, now, I'm going to move all the way to Bukit Batok. =.= Sigh. I'm going to die.
I hate that place. For its history and location.
I can only pray;
Toodles everyone. Happy school days. =.=
I had a perfectly good reason for not blogging.
But that don't mean I'm going to tell you.
=P
So anyway. Today was supposed to be a hardworking day, I did my laundry. But, in the end, I never had the motivation to do my homework. =.=
So I'm drinking Red Bull now, hoping to find my motivation for my PW project thing.
Oh and I've come with a list of looks I wanna do for my makeup! I wish I had more time to do makeup but there are alot of reasons for not doing that.
1. I have SYF.
2. I have LOADS of homework.
3. I have to MOVE.
Yes, you saw correctly. I have to move. AGAIN. This is like the nth time I'm moving. So, now, I'm going to move all the way to Bukit Batok. =.= Sigh. I'm going to die.
I hate that place. For its history and location.
I can only pray;
Toodles everyone. Happy school days. =.=
♥undefined. 8:38 pm
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Hiya! =D
You know what, I realised that I'm actually posting regularly. For once.
=.= Don't know how long this positive streak is going to last though.
For those who thinks my face are an intrusion to this world, I'm so sorry, but I have to post them again. =P
So anyway, before I actually post my pictures (again), I'll let you all know what happened to my exoticly boring life today.
I went to watch Street Fighter, Legend of Chun-Li today! The girl was kicking ass kinda cool! And so chio too. I'm jealous. =.=
But I had only popcorn to eat during the show. =.= Not good. I wanted wedges, but apparently the GV Marina didn't sell them. And Nicholas didn't even know what wedges were. Sigh, a deprived child.
So anyway, after I went back home. And an amazing thing happened, my room key was with Nicholas. And he has tuition. [the poor guy has tuition on everyday of his life.] 0.0
Ok, so what?
In the end, he asked his mom to bring the key all the way to my hostel for me. I felt so bad! But the mom was so cute can. She said it wasn't my fault cause Nicholas took it and didn't return to me. Haha. And she asked me if I had a curfew. So I said I had none and she was like, "So good ah? You can come back any time la!" And she sends me cute sms like: "Happy Holiays, Nick's mom." LOL. So, in the end, I didn't even know her name, I only called her Aunty.
That was my fabulous encouter with Nicholas's mom. Haha. She's so cute can. Ok, I shall stop saying that. =.=
Ok, Now, onto with the photos!
Green for money! $$.$$
Toodles everyone!
You know what, I realised that I'm actually posting regularly. For once.
=.= Don't know how long this positive streak is going to last though.
For those who thinks my face are an intrusion to this world, I'm so sorry, but I have to post them again. =P
So anyway, before I actually post my pictures (again), I'll let you all know what happened to my exoticly boring life today.
I went to watch Street Fighter, Legend of Chun-Li today! The girl was kicking ass kinda cool! And so chio too. I'm jealous. =.=
But I had only popcorn to eat during the show. =.= Not good. I wanted wedges, but apparently the GV Marina didn't sell them. And Nicholas didn't even know what wedges were. Sigh, a deprived child.
So anyway, after I went back home. And an amazing thing happened, my room key was with Nicholas. And he has tuition. [the poor guy has tuition on everyday of his life.] 0.0
Ok, so what?
In the end, he asked his mom to bring the key all the way to my hostel for me. I felt so bad! But the mom was so cute can. She said it wasn't my fault cause Nicholas took it and didn't return to me. Haha. And she asked me if I had a curfew. So I said I had none and she was like, "So good ah? You can come back any time la!" And she sends me cute sms like: "Happy Holiays, Nick's mom." LOL. So, in the end, I didn't even know her name, I only called her Aunty.
That was my fabulous encouter with Nicholas's mom. Haha. She's so cute can. Ok, I shall stop saying that. =.=
Ok, Now, onto with the photos!
Green for money! $$.$$
Toodles everyone!
♥undefined. 11:05 pm
Sorry guys, no pictures for today.
Wasn't at home so didn't create any looks.
=.=
Like anyone would actually like to look at my face.
Ever felt like sometimes you could just fade and disappear?
Now is one of those times I feel really ugly.
After watching Twilight, Marley and Me and Wild Child.
I just feel really useless. Maybe it has something to do my period. =.= What the hell. I wish this feeling would just disappear. I can't sleep. More like I'm forcing myself not to sleep. I still haven't finished my Physics Journal and File, can't find the motivation to. My PW proposal is still stagnant. Like a dead sea.
My mom's friend said I look fatter. Not just one person. Okay, so what, fat AND ugly. Such a good combo. Is it so wrong to feel happy with yourself once in a while? I can just never do that. Everytime I look at other people, there'll be something, somehow wrong with me. It's like, I'm designed to be ocstrasized in this world. Not that I am, but like, I will be. One day. Sooner or later. I don't fit in with people. People just seems to hate me. They don't like me at all. There's always something they are expecting more.
Self-esteem problem? I don't think so. There really is something wrong with me, why would I be fretting if there really is nothing. People are forcing themselves to say nice things to me so that this whole thing wouldn't be blown over the edge and I'll end up suiciding or something. =.= Maybe.
Or maybe if I died, nothing would really change and everything would change for the better.
My friends won't be arguing with me all the time.
My family will have less stress finding all the money it takes to bring me up.
Others. ... They won't lose out in any way.
I was a waste of space in this world. Too bad I won't be able to see how this world turns for the better after my funeral.
Wasn't at home so didn't create any looks.
=.=
Like anyone would actually like to look at my face.
Ever felt like sometimes you could just fade and disappear?
Now is one of those times I feel really ugly.
After watching Twilight, Marley and Me and Wild Child.
I just feel really useless. Maybe it has something to do my period. =.= What the hell. I wish this feeling would just disappear. I can't sleep. More like I'm forcing myself not to sleep. I still haven't finished my Physics Journal and File, can't find the motivation to. My PW proposal is still stagnant. Like a dead sea.
My mom's friend said I look fatter. Not just one person. Okay, so what, fat AND ugly. Such a good combo. Is it so wrong to feel happy with yourself once in a while? I can just never do that. Everytime I look at other people, there'll be something, somehow wrong with me. It's like, I'm designed to be ocstrasized in this world. Not that I am, but like, I will be. One day. Sooner or later. I don't fit in with people. People just seems to hate me. They don't like me at all. There's always something they are expecting more.
Self-esteem problem? I don't think so. There really is something wrong with me, why would I be fretting if there really is nothing. People are forcing themselves to say nice things to me so that this whole thing wouldn't be blown over the edge and I'll end up suiciding or something. =.= Maybe.
Or maybe if I died, nothing would really change and everything would change for the better.
My friends won't be arguing with me all the time.
My family will have less stress finding all the money it takes to bring me up.
Others. ... They won't lose out in any way.
I was a waste of space in this world. Too bad I won't be able to see how this world turns for the better after my funeral.
♥undefined. 2:46 am
Monday, March 16, 2009
Today, I went back to school. Packed stuff.
Lots of stuff.
=.=
NEWS: NYEIN DESPERATELY NEEDS A NEW CAMERA!
-so that I can cam-whore.
I mean like, my photos don't do my makeup justice!
I swear, if you're beside me, and can actually see my makeup, you'd agree too!
=.=
Sigh, stupid camera.
Today was a slack day. So I just put on a random makeup which only takes me like 8 mins altogether. I'm still polishing on it! =D
TOODLES!, nyein. <3
♥undefined. 10:29 pm
Sunday, March 15, 2009
LOOK AT WHAT HAS COME OUT OF MY BOREDOM-NESS!
BYE BYE!
-any hate comments will be ignored. =D
♥undefined. 11:19 pm
Saturday, March 14, 2009
Hey people. Today was just boring. Woke up, played computer and went for tuition.
=.=
Talking with JunKai was like talking to a pervert. Shall not elaborate on that.
Ate subway and went back. Practically nothing to do. Don't know why I was so free.
So I decided to put on my new cosmetics. =D
This is how it turned out.
I know I'm ugly so just keep your comments to yourself. =.=
But, look at the blush I'm wearing, damn pink right!
Courtesy to the Smashbox blush! =D
But I wear until so nice also cannot go out. T.T Nobody wanna go out with me. Sigh.
Toodles.
♥undefined. 7:22 pm
Friday, March 13, 2009
Hey!
EIGHT.
School holidays have come.
If only holidays were really holidays.
I'm sure many of the secondary school peeps would agree with me when I say our one week holidays are just stay-at-home-and-do-homework days.
=.=
The joy.
Okay, let's just ignore the fact that I've got CO stuff and homework waiting for me tackle.
MY SISTER SENT ME LOADS OF COSMETICS!
Let's just go through together what she sent:
ONE.
This is the SMASHBOX QUAD MIX.
Look at it! It's so pretty. All of it are cream based so it'll lighten my cheek colour which is a definitely good thing! =D
And look at the packaging! It's adorable. Oh, the thing next to it is the free gift. It's a gloss.
TWO.
These are the two famous TOO FACED EYE SHADOW PRIMERS.
On the left is the Too Faced SHadow Insurance, the tube one. On the right is the Too Faced Second Base, the box one.
On the left is the Too Faced SHadow Insurance, the tube one. On the right is the Too Faced Second Base, the box one.
I'm so excited! I heard that they're fantastic! *jumps around*
THREE.
And these are all my new lipglosses and lipstick.
Starting from the left,
1. Sally Hansen, Lip Inflation, Sheer Mocha (Finally, after so many months of begging.)
2.Gosh, Velvet Touch Lipstick, Nougat (It's so smooth and easy on the lip!)
3.Too Faced, Juicy Jewels (This was a free gift, so I shall try.)
4. Too Faced, Stolen Kiss (This is also a free gift.)
5. L'oreal, Rouge Virtuale, Rose Pearle Pearly Pink. (This looks purple after I tried it on. 0.0 )
6. Too Faced Whipped Lip Lure, Bustier (This is another free gift.)
7. Too Faced, Juicy Jewels (Just a darker colour than the first one.)
8. Pure Lip Gloss (Don't know what brand it is, also a free gift.)
9. Smashbox, Lip Gloss, Simmer (A very sweet coffee colour! =D )
10. Too Faced, Lip Gloss Lure, Name Dropper. (A weird name but the colour is a peachy tone. )
10. Too Faced, Lip Gloss Lure, Name Dropper. (A weird name but the colour is a peachy tone. )
FOUR.
This was the blush by SmashBox that I've been eyeing for quite long.
The packaging is so cute don't you think?
Wait until you see what's inside...
Ain't the Blush just adorable? Look at the Kabuki brush!!
Haha, This has got to be the most cutest cosmetic I've owned.
Oh, and by the way, the colour pay off is good too! It keeps my cheeks rosy! =D
Ok, Let's move on.
FIVE.
This is Too Faced Pretty Pink Palette. Sexy. =D
These are the colours inside.
The two horizontal rectangles at the extreme left (up and down) are the lip glosses.
The big square is the blush. And the two rectagles at the bottom of the blush are the two eye shadow colours. A bit too dull for me, maybe I'll mix it with other colours. =D
SIX.
SIX.
This is the Too Faced Eye Shadow Lure, Galamazon.
So shimmery! It's like the princess-y and glamorous looks! This will definitely come in of good use. =D
SEVEN.
This is one of the two Too Faced Eye Shadow that my sister gave me.
This is called the Fantasy Island. Don't you just love the sea green and the teal? I do.
EIGHT.
And this is the second Too Faced Eyeshadow, Lovely dovey. Yup. Warm colours! Summer, here we come!
And I still have the shimmery lip gloss by Too Faced and the invisible Lip Liner but was too lazy to take a photo of them, caues they look quite normal. But INVISIBLE LIP LINER? =.= lol. I'll find a use for it. And the shimmery lip gloss was REALLY shimmery. I've got shimmer stuck on my hand just by opening the cap.
THANK YOU SIS! <3
♥undefined. 6:49 pm
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
It's safe to say I daydream alot.
I would wake up at 5a.m. and just let the smell of breakfast rest linger under my nose.
Open my groggy eyes and feel contented that I'm not going to be late for school.
Eat my breakfast, not knowing what I'm digesting but feeling the prescence of people around me.
Just feeling safe.
Feeling secure.
Feeling loved.
Carry my school bag, wear my socks and shoes and look over my shoulder to see a person waiting for me to say goodbye to. I really miss that person.
I had those days. Good old days.
"You don't know what you've got till it's gone." It's so true that it's ironic to me. I still remembered the days when I complained and never rejoiced. The days when I felt like I've had so much more to do outside. I'm missing those days.
I can't say I want to go back. It'll only hurt me even more. It's just hard to take a firm step forward with that raw guilt gnawing up your gut. That step is one I'll have to take, no matter how tough the decisions may be.
Right now, there's no a word exchanged in this confined room of mine. It's much bigger than my previous room but it's void of homeliness. It's void of all the emotions a normal 16 year old girl should have. But I'm not normal, am I?
I want to leave Singapore asap. But my sister wants me to finish up my A-Levels here. I just wish this three years would pass by in a flash. Everywhere I go, there'll be some memories of you. The you that's not coming back to me anymore. It's just hard to say goodbye.
I would wake up at 5a.m. and just let the smell of breakfast rest linger under my nose.
Open my groggy eyes and feel contented that I'm not going to be late for school.
Eat my breakfast, not knowing what I'm digesting but feeling the prescence of people around me.
Just feeling safe.
Feeling secure.
Feeling loved.
Carry my school bag, wear my socks and shoes and look over my shoulder to see a person waiting for me to say goodbye to. I really miss that person.
I had those days. Good old days.
"You don't know what you've got till it's gone." It's so true that it's ironic to me. I still remembered the days when I complained and never rejoiced. The days when I felt like I've had so much more to do outside. I'm missing those days.
I can't say I want to go back. It'll only hurt me even more. It's just hard to take a firm step forward with that raw guilt gnawing up your gut. That step is one I'll have to take, no matter how tough the decisions may be.
Right now, there's no a word exchanged in this confined room of mine. It's much bigger than my previous room but it's void of homeliness. It's void of all the emotions a normal 16 year old girl should have. But I'm not normal, am I?
I want to leave Singapore asap. But my sister wants me to finish up my A-Levels here. I just wish this three years would pass by in a flash. Everywhere I go, there'll be some memories of you. The you that's not coming back to me anymore. It's just hard to say goodbye.
♥undefined. 10:04 pm
Sunday, March 08, 2009
Yo people!
Today, me, yunzhen, pengjie and chua celebrated esther's birthday. Though her birthday isn't until like 10th March. =.=
Sigh, everything around me is disappearing so fast. The time, the place, the people. Everything.
It feels like something just pressed "Fast Forward."
I just realised that I'm going to be 17. 1-7. That's a big number. I feel so old. And I still haven't accomplished anything that I told myself I would be when I'm 17.
Let me tell you what was on my Life's list.
1. Get a rich boyfriend.
2. Get good grades.
3. Lose weight.
None of them are checked. Sigh.
I wonder if it's possible for a person to feel this unimportant.
I wasn't there when Mr. Tay returned the physics pop quiz. I got 12/15. Sigh, I intended to give up on it anyway. I didn't even study. =.= But even though I read through Chem stuff on the day of the test, I only got 11/20. *sigh*
You'll lose a bit of happiness everytime you sigh. Someone told me that. I really wonder if it's true.
Take my word of advice. Love is really rare. Something that's impossible to catch it unless it's onto you. *looks back* Yup, I'm pretty sure it ain't following me.
I guess I'll wait for another year before Lady Luck shines on me again. Every year the time passes, I really wondered what I did with the precious time that looked me in the eye and left. Everytime I look myself in the mirror, I really wondered what happened to that girl who talked big and had huge ambitions. I guess it died with my mother. I still have that part of her in me, just appearing infront of people and shying away from me. I could never connect with her, she's too different from me. Does this mean another trip to the psychologist again? I hope not.
I'm really wondering if I'll succeed in life. What will happen to me 15 years later? Will I be sitting in an office typing nonsensical stuff on a puny little computer, or Would I be enjoying myself at some exotic place? Both possible, but too different.
I wonder if I'll get myself a nice boyfriend. Or a rich one for that matter. But seriously, I've never imagined myself with a guy. It's like, love was never meant for me at all, just for me to stand in the side lines watch it go to other people. Sad, but true. My life is pathetic. I don't even know why there's such a easy thing was never meant for me. I guess that's life. Like how mom puts it. She's always telling me my heart was too distant but too soft for anyone to comprehend. I don't really know what she meant by that but I'm willing to bet she knows what she was saying. Do I have the capacity to love people? I don't know how to.
Toodles. I've got coffee left outside the room.
Today, me, yunzhen, pengjie and chua celebrated esther's birthday. Though her birthday isn't until like 10th March. =.=
Sigh, everything around me is disappearing so fast. The time, the place, the people. Everything.
It feels like something just pressed "Fast Forward."
I just realised that I'm going to be 17. 1-7. That's a big number. I feel so old. And I still haven't accomplished anything that I told myself I would be when I'm 17.
Let me tell you what was on my Life's list.
1. Get a rich boyfriend.
2. Get good grades.
3. Lose weight.
None of them are checked. Sigh.
I wonder if it's possible for a person to feel this unimportant.
I wasn't there when Mr. Tay returned the physics pop quiz. I got 12/15. Sigh, I intended to give up on it anyway. I didn't even study. =.= But even though I read through Chem stuff on the day of the test, I only got 11/20. *sigh*
You'll lose a bit of happiness everytime you sigh. Someone told me that. I really wonder if it's true.
Take my word of advice. Love is really rare. Something that's impossible to catch it unless it's onto you. *looks back* Yup, I'm pretty sure it ain't following me.
I guess I'll wait for another year before Lady Luck shines on me again. Every year the time passes, I really wondered what I did with the precious time that looked me in the eye and left. Everytime I look myself in the mirror, I really wondered what happened to that girl who talked big and had huge ambitions. I guess it died with my mother. I still have that part of her in me, just appearing infront of people and shying away from me. I could never connect with her, she's too different from me. Does this mean another trip to the psychologist again? I hope not.
I'm really wondering if I'll succeed in life. What will happen to me 15 years later? Will I be sitting in an office typing nonsensical stuff on a puny little computer, or Would I be enjoying myself at some exotic place? Both possible, but too different.
I wonder if I'll get myself a nice boyfriend. Or a rich one for that matter. But seriously, I've never imagined myself with a guy. It's like, love was never meant for me at all, just for me to stand in the side lines watch it go to other people. Sad, but true. My life is pathetic. I don't even know why there's such a easy thing was never meant for me. I guess that's life. Like how mom puts it. She's always telling me my heart was too distant but too soft for anyone to comprehend. I don't really know what she meant by that but I'm willing to bet she knows what she was saying. Do I have the capacity to love people? I don't know how to.
Toodles. I've got coffee left outside the room.
♥undefined. 1:10 am
